I did not disclose this on my last post, but the reason I have been depressed is that I had a relapse of my leukemia, and this time the chemotherapy doesn't work anymore. My oncologists have doubts as well on relief from bone marrow transplant since I am on the end stage now, so I am just letting God's will on me.
There's no regrets since I believe I lived my life to the fullest. Being nearly 50 means as well that I have experienced most there is life has to offer. I was planning on disclosing to my family, especially my wife, my sexual perversion, but the psychiatrist I worked with the past few months said there will be no real benefits to either my family nor myself should I do that.
I am too weak to do anything as of now: even just mere republishing the stories in this blog, or even just writing this post so I had to use voice typing here, are just too taxing for me. At this point I really have no plan on what to do with the blog or the stories here.
That's just about it for now. I am not sure with this state of health I am in whether I can still go back to say goodbye to all of you. So, I am taking this opportunity now- goodbye and thank you for reading my life stories.